Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Valentine's Day


I probably had the best Valentine's Day ever. 

Here's how it all went down...


After a super psycho day at school (less stress was involved because this was greatly anticipated), i came home after giving a piano lesson to find a note saying "welcome home" and rose stuck on our outside gate of the house.  


Then, another note and rose on our front door. This time with lyrics from a favorite Dave Matthews song. 


I walked into the house, and found another note on my closed bedroom door with yet, another rose.  This time saying "find the numbers to reveal the puzzles inside.  My heart feels just like these balloons popping every time you cross my mind." 
I open my door to find this....
Every balloon had a number.  I had to pop the balloons in order, to find each one with a piece of a beautifully written love note/poem from my most amazing boyfriend.  


(Then we made chicken quesadillas and watched The Bachelor. A perfect night!)





How did I get so lucky? <3

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Where's the Joy?





Well, this school year since I've been back in the Dominican Republic has been FULL of ups and downs so far (as you may have figured out from previous blog entries).  Lots of feelings of contentment and happiness versus feelings of frustration and anxiety.  Earlier in the year I could keep my head up from being constantly surrounded by negativity, and was considering coming back to JCS for another school year.  


Now...




....yeeeaaahhhhh.

Everything's a struggle. This past Friday we had a teacher work day, and had a guest pastor from Florida give us a devotional.  He talked about having storms in your life and losing the joy in what you do.  


I think that's what happened. I have officially lost the joy of my job and living in the Dominican Republic.  I mean, I love my students and teaching them.  It's just the constant feeling of being burnt out, and other things, that I think I've simply lost the joy in it all.  And it's not that I haven't been trying to keep my eye on the Lord in all of this.  I just think God is starting to prepare me for something else (maybe?)...

So, here's the big decision.  I've decided to officially come back to Hawaii in June, to live and settle for a while.  I know people back home were kind of expecting me to do this anyway, but after I was considering staying here for next year this is kind of big to me.  




And now you're probably asking, "what about you and Brian?!
Well, we're still working all the details out, but the plan as of right now is that he will be fulfilling his last 4 years of being in the army in Hawaii, with me!  


We both need a lot of prayer, though. I need to find a good job, Brian needs to get a hold of his officer to discuss specific details (which seems to become a lot more difficult than anticipated), fitting back into US culture, moving back home with my family, just all that stuff.  Please pray that we find peace in our decision and hopefully will move forward in our relationship as well.  Also prayer for us to take advantage of our last six months here, instead of despising them with complaints.  And last thing - patience PaTIENce PATIENCE! 


There's a reason for everything.  I'm excited to move forward and open a new chapter. Now let's just see what actually happens! 


I can almost guarantee these plans will be at least a little shifted...God is bigger than any expectation/thought of the future I can conceive! 


We'll just wait and see :)

Sunday, January 8, 2012

a very much needed....

VACATION! 
people always say teachers have it so lucky because they get at least two whole weeks for vacation for Christmas and a long summer off of work. well.... 


it is very much earned. 


seriously. 


I will be honest. As soon as lights and Christmas trees went up, roommates began playing Christmas music, and talk of going home for the holidays started - things got super HARD. Why? Well, this was my first Christmas away from my family. I spent every day after Thanksgiving pretending like Christmas wasn't happening to try to feel better about the whole situation.  


On top of all this, the last month before school gets out for Christmas break is CHAOS! The kids really do go crazy. I'm not making this up. 


So, with all this being said, this Christmas break was very much needed. And really, Christmas break wasn't all that bad! Luckily, I wasn't completely alone on Christmas. My amazing boyfriend, Brian, stayed in Jarabacoa as well.  



We spent a lot of time together, with friends who also stayed in the country, and his brother who came to visit for a week.  Also during the break, I house-sat for a missionary family and took care of their dog.  As much as I really wanted to be in Hawaii, I don't think I could have asked for a better vacation.  




And now....TUESDAY. we go back to school Tuesday. We have some staff changes, new staff coming, and regular staff skeptical about how this next semester will run. please God help! Prayers are definitely needed for JCS right now. 


By the way, for our JCS Christmas program this year I had my students sing Mele Kalikimaka and a song called Santa's Got a Sunburn.  It was so cute! I'll try posting a video soon :)




by the way,theres some big news. but i'll leave that for another blog entry ;)


Sunday, October 30, 2011

jump in?

so
many
things
to
complain 
about...



...but what's the point?



I went hiking yesterday to the Jimenoa waterfalls - one of my most favorite hikes here in Jarabacoa.  After a good 35 minute uphill hike, we finally reached the beautiful second waterfall.  The water was clear, almost turquoise, and the sun was hitting the rocks and water in all the right spots.  Just BEAUTIFUL. I was with a bunch of people who wanted to explore the area a bit further than I had before, and we ended up following the water flow down some smaller falls into other beautiful natural pools.  There was one part where it was required that you jump off a rock into the water - only about 12 feet high.  But...


I panicked. 


I absolutely couldn't do it! Something inside of me flipped my insides around in my stomach and made my legs freeze every time I built up the courage to jump.  I kept thinking to myself  "Jess. You've jumped from higher rocks before, stop freaking out! Everyone else did it..." But i stayed frozen.  

This month hasn't been easy.  Things at work are a mess.  People I'm surrounded with are becoming more and more negative.  Emotions are flying everywhere.  It should be so easy to jump into that pool of negativity and messy emotions, right? I've done it before....

Honestly, things with me personally have never been better.  I'm in love with my life, and I'm in love with God for giving that life to me. I was telling someone the other day that if I were a child and been asked to draw how I feel, I would draw me in the middle, surrounded by a yellow ball of light, but on the outsides there would be black. So, what in the world am I supposed to do with this? 

I'm not saying I don't dabble my toes in negativity with frustrating situations, but something inside of me churns and I stay frozen from heading into a negative spiral. 

Thank you, God? Yes. Thank you, God. 

 
"so that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and giving joyful thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of his holy people in the kingdom of light." Colossians 1:10-12

Good verse, huh?

(oh, and for the record.. I didn't actually jump)

Saturday, October 1, 2011

CONTENTMENT.

Wow. Can I just sum up the last month of my life in one word? 


CONTENTMENT.


I came back the Dominican Republic jumping back into the life I left off with in June. But after traveling and taking EIGHT planes in the span of 5 days, I was ready for a little rest. HAH! 
I had about one day to decorate my classroom and the day after was the first day of school.  I started the year thinking I would have 15 students, but this slowly grew to 18.  So now I have one of the largest classes in the school...again. But we don't get thrown anything we can't handle, right? 
all the boys
It's fun. My class this year is made up of 9 boys and 9 girls, where the class dynamic is very much different than last year. A good different. The problem is that they are all friends and get along a little "too" well - but I guess that's a good problem to have, right? 
all the girls








Luckily, it seems God understood my need for rest and sent Hurricane Irene our way.  We got lucky and only had a ton of rain the first day, and hardly anything the second day. The best part--> NO SCHOOL for two days! It was awesome, and rest well needed!















I decided to become a YoungLife leader again this year. We went on a leader's retreat for a weekend, and while I was still hesitant to decide if I really wanted to make the commitment for the full year this year, I felt a complete sense of peace with the other leaders.  When we had our first club (youth group type thing) I felt contentment that I was making the right choice. So, it's back to YoungLife this year! I'm puuuuuumped :)






I think I found my "home church" here now. There's this school/church out here called Escuela Caribe, which is a boarding school for rebellious American teenagers. They just got a new pastor, who is aMAZing (and the best part of this church...its all in ENGLISH!). Last year I got incredibly burnt out from surface level preaching, let alone surface level preaching in spanish, to the point of me never caring to go to church.  However, the people at Escuela Caribe are incredible and have such great hearts for God.  I am always so inspired every time I go there by who I encounter while I'm there. I've also become a little more fond of someone that works there, so that's fun too ;)


I am incredibly content with where I'm at in life right now. Maybe God is putting this peace into my life as a hint for future plans? I don't know... I've learned my lesson so many times not to have high expectations about anything, so I'm simply taking each day as it comes.  Who knows!


Please pray. Pray for my class and Jarabacoa Christian School. Pray for my roommates and friends. Pray for finances.  Pray for safety (our house was broken into two weeks ago).  Pray for relationships being built and strengthened on the foundation of God.  And pray for this contentment to continue, God-willing.  Prayer is so powerful! 




...Thank you :)



Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Swaziland, Africa

So, I went to Africa. Swaziland to be specific. I can’t even begin to tell you how this trip impacted my life and how the other 16 people on our team were affected seeing what we saw, and doing what we did.  There were so many times where I didn’t know whether to smile, laugh, or cry. God is truly amazing.  We traveled to Swaziland to be a part of an organization called Advocates for Africa’s Children (AFAC), an organization a woman from our church started after visiting Swaziland about 6 years ago. Here’s a glimpse of our time in Swaziland, and other countries along the way…

Days 1-4 Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday: TRAVEL
The route we took to get to Swaziland was long.  We flew from Honolulu to Manila (Philippines) , Manila to Hong Kong (China), spent a night in Hong Kong, Hong Kong to Singapore, Singapore to Johannesburg (South Africa), then drove about 6 hours to get to where we were staying in Swaziland. OH.MY.GOODNESS. Although it was a LOT of travel time, it was a great time for our group to start a bond, because being together for about two weeks you kind of need a bond to happen so craziness doesn’t begin. Some good times to be had, for sure!
H&M in Hong Kong
Yes, I ate pigeon


Day 5: Wednesday
Our first day in the village of Mgambene. We spent the day at Pastor Edward’s homestead, working and learning what a typical day looks like for the Swazi people. For the women at least, the day consisted of hauling ears of corn from the field to the house and shucking the corn off the ears.  Other people began the project of building a green house.  It was a great day of building relationships with the men and women who live there.  In the late afternoon, around 70 kids (mostly orphans) came to the homestead to receive a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and half an orange from our team.  In order for us to understand a bit more about these kids’ lives, Pastor David and Pastor Edward asked the kids to raise their hand if one of their parents had died, and then again if both of their parents have died. The number of kids who raised their hands was astounding. He then asked who went to school and didn’t go to school. About half. WOW.
After passing out sandwiches and oranges to the kids, we had a chance to hang out with the kids and play with them.  While some of our high schoolers danced with the other kids, I held back and spoke with the local preschool teacher.  Her students were there, and showed us all the songs they knew in English and how much English they have learned already (because schools in Swaziland begin teaching English from day 1).  I asked her what her greatest challenge was, and she told me not having any toys. She has students ranging from ages 3-6 in her classroom, and she proceeded to tell me that she lets one of the 6 year olds in her class go to school for free, because he is HIV positive and has nowhere else to go. She was also really worried about the school closing down because there are no funds to keep it open. Most of her students do not have parents anymore to support their schooling. Several of them are HIV positive. School is the only stability they have in their life and that might have to end? It’s not fair. 


Day 6: Thursday
More corn was shucked, and relationships blossomed among us and the Swazi people on Pastor Edward’s homestead. The highlight: going to the local church, observing a typical church feeding for the orphan children, and playing with them.  At least three times a week the church feeds the kids.  The food they receive is a certain type of rice mixture, with seasonings that help malnourished children get the right proteins and vitamins they need to stay somewhat healthy.  I can’t even begin to explain what it felt like to witness this.

I was playing with several of the younger children. We were sitting down, me facing them, and I wanted to know how much English they knew and what they’d been learning in school.  They proceeded to count up to 150, count by 2s, 5s, and 10s, say the ABCs, and we spelled words together. It was an exciting teacher moment for me, and the joy on their faces when learning how to spell words was indescribable. WOW, again.
Day 7: Friday
We slaughtered chickens. My chicken’s name was Victoria.  Yes, I named her. For some reason killing chickens didn’t bother me at all. Is that strange? Probably. But an awesome learning experience! After beheading the chicken, we were taught how to pluck the feathers and gut the chicken piece by piece.  SO CRAZY. Later on in the day we ate the chickens we killed, prepared by the wonderful ladies on the homestead, along with rice and boiled cabbage.  Really yummy!
















 This day also consisted of fetching water from the river and balancing it on your head, shooing the goats away from the chickens, learning how to wash clothes in the river, and chopping down a tree.

We ended this day at the church, where all the kids from the previous day met us and we had Shakira dance party – blasting “Africa” from the van. Incredible!

Day 8: Saturday
This day was…hard. We visited five local homesteads in
Mgambene, homesteads where poverty stricken families and HIV affected families lived – in the worst conditions I have ever seen in my life.  One homestead we visited was lived in by a young woman, who was caring for about 7 children, all orphans, because they didn’t have anyone else to take care of them. Sleeping conditions consisted of a mat on the cement floor of their teeny tiny room, where all of them slept together (which is incredibly uncommon because the boys and girls culturally sleep in different houses but on the same homestead). All of the other families had more adults and children living in the same or worse conditions. 

It was cold this day. I mean, cold. And here these orphaned children are in these homesteads where running water and electricity is the least of their problems.  No blankets, sweatshirts, shoes, good clothing to keep them warm.  There was one little boy in particular, probably not even 2 years old yet, wearing a pink flowered fleece and no pants or underwear.  Just dirtiness, and nakedness.  I can’t get this picture out of my mind. These people are lucky to even get a meal once a day.  How are we just supposed to let this go? How is this okay by any standards?  Well, it’s not. Sometimes all you can do is…
pray. 
Pray that God will protect them, because really…that’s almost all they have.
It’s just not fair.
Day 9: Sunday
Church! We went to the local church of Mgambene, where Pastor Edward preaches and the orphans get fed.  The service was an experience.  In those unstructured hours, we sang Swazi songs, Kate Miller and Jack Thibalt gave their testimonies, Mahea danced hula, we sang our own songs, Pastor Edward preached, Drew preached, an offering was given, and Nina’s shirts from Punahou were passed out to the people.  The day ended in difficult goodbyes to the people of Mgambene and of course, a Shakira dance party with all the kids. AMAZING.
Day 10: Monday
A LOT of driving today.  We drove to a local chicken business that AFAC supports, ate KFC, then drove 2.5 hours to a game reservation to go on a real African safari! We saw several different animals, including rhinos, gazelle, giraffes, birds, elephants, and warthogs. To be honest, it’s not really what I expected.  I don’t know why, but I kind of expected a safari to be like, a ton of animals walking around your safari jeep – so close you could almost touch them.  Nope. Not at all.  
The animals were difficult to spot at times, and the ride was almost 3 hours long.  We really wanted to see the lions, but they weren’t showing themselves that day. So, all in all, it was a long day. But at least I can say I went on an African safari!

Day 11 and 12: Tuesday & Wednesday

We began our time in the village of Nsindatje.  This was kind of the point in our trip where everyone was getting irritated with each other, and wanted to go home.  We all needed an extra push to be open to the new things we would encounter in this village.  In Nsindatje, we tilled the land, planted tomatoes, harvested sweet potatoes, blessed the land, I slaughtered another chicken (Helen), and led the kids in “The Ants Go Marching,” which proceeded a march around the church at least 10 times.  It was awesome! 
Wednesday was my last day with the group.  Thursday morning I flew out of Manzini to begin my long journey home to Hawaii.  I stayed in Hawaii for one night, and now I am currently on the plane going back to the Dominican Republic (school starts Thursday!). 
I think I’ve had about…oh, 5 emotional breakdowns since I left? From leaving early saying goodbye to the youth and amazing friends in Swaziland, to processing Africa, to saying goodbye to family and other friends….you would think this “saying goodbye thing” would get easier right? After years of doing this whole “leaving-for-long-periods-of-time” thing? Yeah…FALSE.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m incredibly excited for this next year in the Dominican Republic, and I think God will show me a lot this year.  However, I’m also incredibly excited to move back to Hawaii next year and start a new, hopefully more stable, chapter in life. 
Well, I think this blog entry is long enough. If you got this far, I thank you for your interest in my life and what God is doing in not only my life, but the world. Your support means more to me than you could ever know.

You’re the God of this city, You're the King of these people, You're the Lord of this nation, You are. You're the light in this darkness, You're the hope to the hopeless, You're the peace to the restless, You are …”




Photo Cred to Josh Mcfeeley and Mahea Schuman for a couple pictures :)

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

"and isn't it ironic..."





"When God closes doors, He opens new ones. Better ones. Don't become discouraged when negative things happen." 


How ironic....today.


Do you ever have those moments when you feel like God is simply looking out for you when something happens because the same message/song/event keeps "popping up" at random times?  Or when someone randomly gives you advice or encouragement out of the blue, they have no idea what's going on in your life at the moment, and it for some reason fits what has been happening recently? 


...I've been having these "bursts of the Holy Spirit" lately. Especially today. 


I've been home in Hawaii for about 5 weeks now. This whole summer has been filled with ups and downs, high emotions, low emotions, excitement, fun, strengthened relationships, failed relationships, and flat-lined relationships. Who knew so much could happen in such a short amount of time right? 
Through the good and the bad, God was (and still is) there for it all. He put a burst of the Holy Spirit to encourage me to stay in the Dominican Republic next year, encouraging my good friend Melissa to stay as well.  He encouraged me when I was frustrated at both of my summer jobs, and also with friendships that unraveled into a messy ball of frustration. 


In 10 days I leave for Swaziland, Africa with a team of 16 high schoolers and leaders. I'm incredibly excited. I can't even begin to imagine what God will be doing with us and those in Swaziland right now. 




Please pray for us - for good health, being well-rested, and showing up with the right mindset God wants us to have. God is opening this door for us to do His work, and we want to give Him our all.